Have you ever heard the metaphor, "broken heart"? I had, but I never thought that actualy feeling this way was real. It is. Love is the main cause of a broken heart, including my own broken heart.
She was my first girlfriend. I had dated other boys, but she was the first girl. Her name is Courtlin, and we had been (and are) best friends. Then I realized that I liked her as more than just a friend, but I never had the courage to ask her out. Plus I did'nt even know if she was bi or not. I finaly asked her out after two weeks of picturing the scene in my head, and she said yes. I was the happiest person alive! I had finaly gotten what I had wanted for a long time. After a month or so of dating, making out after school, and cuddling with eachother, I got an e-mail. The heart breaking e-mail. The subject of the e-mail was "Im sorry", and that's what scared me, what could this mean? The message said: "Hey Aiden. I need to tell you that I am not bi, I was just confused, I love you, but as a friend only, not in this way. Im sorry."
I replied back saying : "It's alright. You found something out about yourself that you did'nt know. How could anyone be upset about that?"
I made the e-mail sound as happy as I could, but whether it worked or not, she will never know how much I love her, or how much pain she has caused me.
Courtlin, I love you, but why did you break my heart? Why?
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